I figure if I make my goals public, I might actually keep them!
My main goals are all about self improvement! I have been feeling like I am in a spiritual rut…
Church has become work, I so miss going to Relief Society and feeling the spirit at church. In primary, I feel like I am on duty, crowd control. I have small moments of sweetness, but overall it is not very uplifting. With not being uplifted at church, and not doing much during the week to feel the spirit, I need a change! A change that starts with me!
I also have a feeling that part of my hair loss issue is due to stress, my hair quit falling out for 1 week, 1 stress free week… The last 3 days I have been feeling the stress of no pay check, no money in the bank… And guess what my hair is falling out again. I got to thinking, the week it started to fall out, Shane told me his job was in the crapper and we would no longer be getting steady pay checks. I am sure the other things in my life ie. HCG and Thyroid contributed, but it seems a little too coincidental that as soon as I find out our livelihood is in jeopardy and then that the expected pay check hasn’t arrived, that I begin to shed like a sheep dog in Spring!
I have always struggled with my weight and this last year I managed to shed 40 pounds. I would still like to lose 25-35 pounds more, I had originally thought I would only ever want to be 25 pounds less than I am now, but now that I am closer to that weight, I see my body still has plenty to shed, so I think 35 is a realistic goal.
I have always wanted to be more athletic, to be able to push past the pain and keep going. I am terrible at mind over matter, when I run and my body says stop, I tend to listen! I want to learn to push myself harder and farther. To be healthy and strong. To kick Shane’s butt wake boarding maybe
So my goals are simple, quit trying to control the things I cannot control and focus on the things I can control.
I can control how I spend my time. I can control how much time I spend enriching my spirit.
I can control what I dwell on, I can stress and worry or I can let it be. I haven’t entirely figured out how to do this, but I can try!
I can control the food I eat and the beverages I drink (I still love you Diet Pepsi).
I can control how hard I push myself, I can find the athlete inside of me… Begging to escape my lazy butt!
Maybe 2011 can end with a full head of hair on a healthy fit body! Here’s to you 2011, bring it!
PS 2010 I enjoyed you too, thanks for the good times!
